Omg it’s actually been so long since I’ve even been on Tumblr but I guess when its 6 am and you still haven’t had a wink of sleep, this is what you do hehe. What comes up next is some personal reflection so feel free if you don’t want to read me talking about myself lmao.
I spent about the last half hour scrolling through all my posts and omggggg is it possible to even feel this embarrassed about yourself -.- Looking back on the choices I made, the things I did, the situations that I put myself in, I honestly feel so regretful. I’m not sure if it was the college app stress, or leading viet, or relationship issues, but DAMN I was a bitch. Of course, part of me probably hasn’t changed that much and I probably have a hell of a lot more growing to do but I think I’m taking some pretty darn big steps.
I guess ever since school started, the more I focused on the bigger picture, the less I cared about myself. Does that make sense? Idk it’s like, since I started college I guess I’ve met more people, experienced real problems, and had to actually work in school. When you go through that, you learn to ignore the petty little things in the past that used to eat at you. Little arguments, pet peeves, those things don’t seem to matter anymore. Idk it’s weird.
And I guess it’s kind of humbling too. Back in high school, all I ever really thought about was me me me me. How I felt, what I was going through, and situations that affected me. I wasn’t a very considerate person as much as I thought I was at the time, and frankly, a very selfish one. I honestly wish I could turn back the clock and take back the means things I did sometimes. And actually think before I speak.
I’m not really sure where this is coming from. It’s been gradual over the past couple months and I don’t even know if people still use tumblr lol. But I guess after five months, I’m kinda starting to grow up.
It feel weird to be posting stuff after such a long time lol.
Once a b always a b
Hope you guys enjoyed your little shitfest about me today. Guess where i think you should shove your opinions.
this was a nice birthday present
and all I ever wanted to hear
Loneliness is bliss
“music is my life” says the white girl
suddenly her itunes freezes and the music stops
she can’t breathe
feeling herself slipping away, she stumbles into the kitchen and manages to turn on the radio
she is safe for another day
*gives people advice when i cant even handle my own problems*
In 1969, Fred Rogers appeared before the United States Senate Subcommittee on Communications. His goal was to support funding for PBS and the Corporation for Public Broadcasting, in response to significant proposed cuts by President Nixon.
Fred Rogers was a Saint.